Gender is like Treebeard: "Nobody is on our side" 4/20/19 so the whole thing's a joke except it keeps you up at night until it's day :0) laughing with a mouth full of blood laughing with a mouth full of water laughing with a mouth full of seltzer laughing with a mouth full of hard seltzer 胡说八道 literally unbelievable a dog on her back with crooked legs in the air like an upturned bug or a cat with a corner of banana bread clamped in her :3 mew mouth absconding as the laugh track swells I would laugh too, and so would you, and no one can feel bad about it no sore losing for a moving target
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magic hour in the mountain's mouth:
a better day is coming — we all know for who — and there's trying as a verb and trying as a noun, and I pick for meaning out of fish bones left by the table I'm serving
all transit sounds the same when you have headphones on a record scratch makes my heart stop a text from my mother makes my heart stop I check my bank account everyfriday morning and thank god I'm no longer shaking pennies from old pant pockets into the coinstar machine
I used to get disgusted with myself for all thet hings I couldn't bbecome with the snap of a finger now, now I see no forest and no trees, only the infinite roll of an unfurling scroll
all things glow against pink and red and gold like, physics, chemistry can't explain the gasp I make when the bus rides the Western horizon just as the song crests, just as the words on the page before me align in the exact sequence that makes my heart fal through its cage, just as I remember that I'm the peak of my own mountain and all things seem possible above the cloud line
clouds with frayed edges like french tulips clouds that smear like a palette knife whispering through the visible spectrum clouds in cushion formation waiting for the fall
I wake up at three in the morning and glare at the floor and there's always a little patch of moonlight that looks like a piece of ticker tape, and I always try to pick it up through bleary eyes and fumbling fingers and when I realize I've been tricked
I will croak out a drymouthed laugh and my heart will stop before starting again
